the people who see beyond
who gain the world
but lose themselves.
the angels in the room,
who bear themselves in a garden full
of orchids in soft focus of
their wandering gaze,
mud puddle coloured tint shaded
over their heavy eyes.
"Harke! The Falcon hath brought my maiden away!"
And in the dark he bareth himself down,
and his bed there layeth the night.
Who’s wounds bled
into the garden bright.
The people squint shyly,
"Sed libera nos a malo!" they sing.
towards the ending blossoms
With words harassing gospels
Where worlds caress apostles
And the man who sees the light
stands firmly, unmoving by your side.
The Leaves That Could Not Burn
There is a tree
whose leaves cannot be burnt.
Men hold flames to it
but cannot charr nor singe it.
They cannot catch onto the
fires thousands try to give it.
The day will come when its branches
waste away to ashes,
and its roots curl to the gods
crackling like coal in a furnace.
But its leaves will lay scattered on the flaming
Mr Cat Is Wet
-A reading from the Gospel of Mr
Alex Ian Loh, 2014.
The Little Boy and the Ice Cream
Once upon a time there was a little boy who really loved ice cream. He had only ever tried ice cream a few times in his life but he knew what ice cream was. He had seen movies and tv shows, read books and poems, and danced giddy to music all about ice cream.
But he could never seem to get any ice cream. Whenever he thought he found ice cream, it always turned out to be frozen yoghurt. But the little boy didn’t want frozen yoghurt.
So he made a wish every night for ice cream. He wished he would one day find ice cream, plenty of it, and he wished that it would last forever and ever.
One day, the boy got his wish. He woke up to find an ice cream truck right in front of him. A few seconds later another ice cream truck appeared. And another. And another! Soon, there was nothing around him but ice cream trucks oozing the fuck out with ice cream just everywhere and the little boy said “what the fuck la” and he was so overwhelmed with ice cream that he just died. He just lay the fuck down on the ground and he died.
I feel a thousand eyes and their fixation
on the stillness of my being.
I lie there, in the middle of a parade atop
I am impaled through my back
by a large pike that suspends me above
the ground. I spin
hypnotic around my own
A man with my face and the 7th
shade of my voice speaks,
he calls himself the greatest magician of all time.
He assures the crowd that I am alright,
his certainty masks my stillness.
Though I am already dead.
Though I have been dead for a long
But nobody knows.
Some rabbits don’t need to be pulled out of the hat.
The Final Power
Change my boots and go back into my cave.
Make my life a permanent celebration and take back the power,
give back the common.
I will be my church, seek the breath of salvation to become
the reins of my prophets. Holding back
only what I cannot keep.
I am the human at the violent hour.
Heave the tears and be the human
at the violent hour.
The man going back into his cave
to never show again.
I walked along a path covered in leaves, smoke crowded over my feet, gushing into the blankness of my footsteps.
I walked rhythmic, stepping beat for beat to the drums in the distance.
I saw my grandfather who had turned into an owl, who sat with frameless glasses, magnifying his already large pupils, on a tapestry over a fallen log.
He gestured for me to come closer and I did, growing eager with each step.
Rhythmic, stepping beat for beat to the drums in the distance.
He pulled me into the tapestry and shot me through a universe I could hardly imagine. Wisdom beyond all worldly understanding.
On an undulating table cloth we swam through the liquid of my consciousness, feeling each drop of thought sliver past my cheeks and onto my neck. Dripping seamlessly down past my body and onto my feet.
I saw each knot in my soul untie itself and lay themselves before me, baring all truth and understanding to my beating heart. Overcome with an overwhelming sense of acceptance, I stilled my motion and began to listen.
I heard everything beautiful I had ever remembered, music beyond all sound, perfection beyond the imagination of the great composers. Melodies infused with words that bore the calm to the rage of war that stuck onto my veins.
Music that ebbed through my stream of the present and lifted me above and beyond the limitation of my own inhibition.
My grandfather turned to me and whispered, “When you can feel. When you can understand the beauty of that which lies above desire. When you can accept the living life in all things you see with your eyes, smell with your nose, listen with your ears and touch with your hands and hold them close as company enough. When you can forget the arrows and stones that stay trapped at your feet and release the scars that lay webbed across the underside of your skin. When you can see beyond yourself, you will find your peace waiting there for you.”
He disappeared in a morning mist that dewed my body, blessed the darkness with crystal light that clung eternal onto the surface of my being.
An arrow on a compass stopped abrupt and pointed.
I closed my eyes, cleared my breath, shed the boulders that hung heavy off my shoulders and followed. Step by step.
Rhythmic, beat for beat toward the drums in the distance.
I held on to you like you were a crucifix
and my entire body
the trembling hands of a man already
whose flesh wheezed weak with any real will
to see the light of tomorrow.
one day we’ll laugh and cry
and cry and laugh about it all again
with the leaves on the trees softly sighing
all around us.
we just want to come close to dying
to feel like we’re alive.
Take my shackles, take my bones,
take my shelter, take my home.
Take me with you when you’re not alone.
Take sides, take fights, take lefts, take rights,
journey us away and stay
and pray with me. Stay with me. Be brave with me
past police men suited full, swirl,
see you in full, swirl,
hope with me for a beautiful world.
Fill cracks in the building walls with,
some gum you left in your wallet,
we’ll tape them shut and hope to god that our plans don’t go on stalling.
Fly kites too close to the sun
to bite too slow and be shunned,
watch the chances dance and prance us round
cathedrals preaching, teaching
messages of St Francis,
and then float away.
Watch the moments with me.
Cast the dark out and flee.
See the golden arrow
pierce the sparrow then
make a stand, make your mark.
Make your plan, take my heart
and come away with me.
I see you,
in the halfway point between consciousness
You do that
thinking thing you do about the future and the past but
never the present
Where I am.
Next to you beneath the sky painting pictures of lonely roads,
and tired feet.
You flash your
smile that glues my soul together, even if for a second or two,
and I am unbroken.
I wish that
you knew you were as beautiful as you are, your skin nestled neatly around
a breath-taking whole.
You make me
want to be better. To believe in good. To believe in
like it was possible.
Relic dreams of that “if,” relic dreams of that
turn away and drop your gaze. Please don’t remove yourself from
my hallowed heart.
another round of scrambled eggs and tea. Make me whole and